Author’s Note: Each chapter of this book can be read as a stand-alone and it is not necessary that they be read in numerical order. All of the previous chapters are posted here in my Diaries or at my blog.

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Chapter 17

Stopping Internal Dialogue

As recorded in Tales of Power, the Yaqui man of knowledge, Don Juan Matus, told his apprentice, Carlos Castaneda,

Do you know that at this very moment you are surrounded by eternity? And do you know that you can use that eternity, if you so desire? Do you know that you can extend yourself forever in any of the directions? Do you know that one moment you can turn into eternity? This is not a riddle, it’s a fact. But only if you mount that moment and use it to take the totality of yourself forever in any direction.

Stopping internal dialogue is another necessary skill every warrior must master. It is actually a state of non-mind in which you place your mind on pause ceasing all thought and self-awareness. This is your gateway to the spirit world, a place outside time and space. Without dimensions, or boundaries, it is a place that one enters in a state of pure awareness leaving the self behind.

Buddhists call this state of mind samadhi and describe it as a form of directed meditation in which a crystallized consciousness thinks in an intuitive, symbolic, non-local, and non-linear way that is not like ordinary thinking. This is where the observer and the observed merge into one, knowledge is intuited holistically as if by Vulcan mind meld, and the Seeker mystically experiences a sense of unity with all that is, ever was, and ever will be. The ego dissolves and the Seeker is reborn as immortal spirit no longer fearing the death of the physical body. No one is ever the same after returning to their ordinary state of consciousness.

How do I know this? I know it because I have been there. I have experienced the archetypal death and resurrection to spirit.

Can I describe it? Not really.

Why? Because no one can put God or infinity in a box.

We humans think conceptually. That is, we construct tidy little three-dimensional boxes to house our concepts and we call them definitions. This system does not help to understand infinity because we cannot put infinity in a box. Since infinity is limitless, our nice tidy boxes cannot wall it out. To say infinity is not something is to impose a not-this type of limit on infinity, which is impossible since infinity is limitless. This is another reason why the real world is an illusion.

If God exists, God is infinite. If God exists, God is everything and everything is infinite, including our consciousness. Therefore, separation from God is an illusion and we are immortal. I intuited all of this and a great deal more during my first and subsequent mystical experiences.

Since I returned to my ordinary state of consciousness after my first mystical experience, I have never questioned the existence of God or feared death. Nothing that exists can be understood as a separate thing or spirit. To know something is to know it as part of a whole that is unknowable and indescribable, including ourselves by the way, which recalls the well known Sufi parable of the three blind men attempting to define an elephant.

Many humans yearn for transcendental experiences and our brains are conveniently wired with the neuro-chemical receptors that are necessary to process chemical substances that induce those experiences. Organic substances like Psilocybin mushrooms, Peyote, and Ayahuasca work quite nicely. Laboratory produced chemicals like LSD and DMT also do the job. The universal human genetic ability to process these substances and have transcendental hallucinogenic experiences or visions may be an evolutionary advantage, according to the doctrine of natural selection. It certainly is not a disadvantage.

I cannot even estimate how many times I have ingested psychedelics, but I can tell you that I started in the late 1960s and never had a bad experience. I have heard stories about people who had bad experiences, so I do not recommend psychedelics, even though I have no way of verifying those stories and suspect they are not true. I do not believe anything the government tells me about anything, especially drugs, given its insane War on Drugs.

Fortunately, there is another way to induce the experience. It is called “Gazing.” Find a comfortable place to sit where you will not be disturbed. Take a few slow deep breaths and exhale fully after each. Focus your attention on your breathing. Imagine your whole body inflating evenly everywhere as you inhale slowly. Imagine your whole body deflating evenly everywhere as you exhale slowly.

Imagine yourself sinking slowly into a warm hot spring in a deep forest. Visualize and feel your body melt away and disappear.

Ask the spirit world for permission to enter the spirit world and for protection while you are there.

Imagine or stare at something like a waterfall, turbulent flowing whitewater, or a mandala for a long time in fixed manner and gradually allow your gaze to unfocus and remain that way as two separate images – one per eye – rather than one.

Allow any thoughts to drift by without latching onto them because that will break the spell. Just let yourself go blank and let whatever happens happen.

When you want to return to ordinary reality, just shift your attention to your fingers or toes, wiggle them, and you will return to your body instantly.

Do not be afraid to let go of your sense of self and merge with the One in the indescribable place beyond space and time. Your physical body will still be here when you return.

You will never be the same once you have experienced infinite love.

Peace and many blessings to you.

Cross-Posted at my blog and the Smirking Chimp.

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My real name is Frederick Leatherman. I was a criminal-defense lawyer for 30 years specializing in death-penalty defense and forensics. I also was a law professor for three years.

Now I am a writer and I haul scrap for a living in this insane land.




Frederick Leatherman

Frederick Leatherman

I am a former law professor and felony criminal defense lawyer who practiced in state and federal courts for 30 years specializing in death penalty cases, forensics, and drug cases.

I taught criminal law, criminal procedure, law and forensics, and trial advocacy for three years after retiring from my law practice.

I also co-founded Innocence Project Northwest (IPNW) at the University of Washington School of Law in Seattle and recruited 40 lawyers who agreed to work pro bono, assisted by law students, representing 17 innocent men and women wrongfully convicted of sexually abusing their children in the notorious Wenatchee Sex Ring witch-hunt prosecutions during the mid 90s. All 17 were freed from imprisonment.