Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road…
As you all know, the last year and a half have been tough on the Smith family. It has been beyond exhausting juggling everything that has been flung our way.
But when you try keeping eighty bazillion balls in the air at one time when you have lupus?
Apparently your body decides to get even with you. And, let’s just say, mine is doing so at the moment.
Because lupus is a lifetime illness, I have to focus on better day-to-day management, something that hasn’t been enough of a priority for me. And I have to do it starting now.
What does it mean in terms of FDL?
I’m going to have to step away from blogging for a while, because I want to live to see the woman that The Peanut will become as she grows up. And I want to grow old with Mr. ReddHedd, who may just be the best husband on the planet and is most certainly the love of my life.
It is a tough thing to do at the ripe age of 40 — face your own potential mortality. But suddenly I’m doing it with a far clearer perspective not just on what it means for me, but also for my wonderful husband and our precious child.
This is a hard decision to make but, for once in my life, I have to put my own needs ahead of everything else…even though it really hurts to walk away from something I’ve put so much of myself into the last few years. But we have to do everything possible to get this current health issue under control.
What that means on down the road is anyone’s guess — lord knows keeping my mouth shut about policy issues that piss me off isn’t exactly my forte. But I’m trying to take it one day at a time.
I have loved meeting and working alongside all of you, from the very first day when it was just me, Jane and about 4 comments a post on any given day. It is a glorious thing to behold to see what an active, vibrant community the whole of FDL has become, and what a catalyst for change such a dedicated group of voices can be when they are raised together.
The good news is that Pull Up A Chair won’t be going anywhere in the meantime.
My friend DeVeria has agreed to take on the Saturday PUAC duties for me in the interim, and she’s wonderful. DeVeria has been working behind the scenes at FDL for a while, and I think you all are going to love getting to know her sunny, caring self on the page as much as I have enjoyed getting to know her in person. Plus, she’s a hoot and she wears hot shoes, so what’s not to love? Please do me a favor and give her a warm welcome in the comments.
It has been both a pleasure and a privilege to work with all of you.
Whatever else I do with my life and whatever else happens down the road, I can say that I have worked very hard to make the world better in the company of some incredible human beings. And that’s one helluva thing to be able to say, isn’t it?