Boy, my state has been in the news for all sorts of reasons lately,  particularly with the primary approaching, but Blender Scott passed this sad “ex-gay” tale of Tim Wilkins, the founder/director of CROSS Ministry in Wake Forest.

On reaching puberty, I recognized an attraction to guys at school. “Oh God,” I asked, “why is this happening to me?” I had given my heart to Jesus and knew He died for my sin, but even that did not stop the turmoil that characterized my every thought. For years I carried a piece of paper on which I had written, “Lord, I am trusting you for healing.”

Several years later I gave in to that same-sex attraction. We had gone to school together for years, and his approving smile fascinated me. For the first time in my life, I felt that another male really liked me. I quickly found that homosexuality provided excitement, but not fulfillment. My sporadic homosexual activity continued until my early 20s, when I decided that although I honestly did not know how to be heterosexual, I did know how to be obedient.

…Homosexual temptations continued throughout college and seminary, but to a lesser degree. I remained steadfast in refusing to yield, and my revulsion toward heterosexuality diminished.

As you might imagine, he did end up marrying a woman, and did tell her about his prayed away homosexual tendencies. Hey — at least he was up front.

Pam Spaulding

Pam Spaulding