‘Tis the season, I suppose.  I dunno, just not in the mood this year for some reason.  The Peanut is the perfect age for Santa, and so excited that seeing her wait for Christmas is like watching agony on fast forward.

Because of vacation, shopping was a last minute thing this year.  I finished up the last few bits Thursday evening after midnight, stumbling through the local WalMart to track down that last wish list thing: The Peanut wants a musical instrument, we have been trying to find her a child-sized guitar with no luck.  

So there I am, stumbling around WalMart at midnight looking for one…and realizing that Christmas is insane.  So am I.  And that they didn’t have a child-sized guitar.

Generally, I love the holidays.  But this year, I’m just sort of ambivalent. 

I have a friend who goes into what she calls her "winter hibernation" — she stops answering the phone, tries to schedule a vacation in some remote place and generally just avoids contact with people who are caught up in the holiday frenzy.  After my shopping insanity, I’m wondering if she doesn’t have a better idea.  Every year I try to reduce my shopping to something more manageable, and try my best to shop for items that people need and that give back in some way — hand-made crafts, soaps, hand-dipped candles, etc.  But, unfortunately, time was at a premium this year and we aren’t exactly living in a shopping mecca.  Which is how I wound up shopping at midnight at WalMart.  Never again. 

We’ve done some charity giving this year — put together several stockings for local kids through the Salvation Army (they do great work here), given to groups both local and beyond, and hoping we can afford a donation through Heifer International, once we go over our budget and see if we have any more give left.  But this year, it just seems like there is so much more need at the end of my budget — and that’s tough, isn’t it? 

I’m just feeling like we ought to be doing more, but not quite figuring out how best to do that yet.   And instead of being happy about all the good we’ve managed to do, I’m having a glass half-empty mope about everyone we can’t help this year.  Not bah humbug, but more of a we need to do better.

So, in the spirit of trying to get into the season, I’m sharing a fabu version of White Christmas from Otis Redding.  This can be a rough time of year for a lot of folks, so I thought an open-ended what you want from Santa, or what you’ve done to help someone out, or why is your family so freaking insane and forcing you to count the minutes until you can get away from them again, or whatever it is that’s on your mind sort of thread would be a good one for everyone. 

I’m opening the floor for folks who have a bit of a kvetch — or better yet, some bit of cheery news.  Pull up a chair…

(H/T to TRex for finding this YouTube.  Love this version.)

Christy Hardin Smith

Christy Hardin Smith

Christy is a "recovering" attorney, who earned her undergraduate degree at Smith College, in American Studies and Government, concentrating in American Foreign Policy. She then went on to graduate studies at the University of Pennsylvania in the field of political science and international relations/security studies, before attending law school at the College of Law at West Virginia University, where she was Associate Editor of the Law Review. Christy was a partner in her own firm for several years, where she practiced in a number of areas including criminal defense, child abuse and neglect representation, domestic law, civil litigation, and she was an attorney for a small municipality, before switching hats to become a state prosecutor. Christy has extensive trial experience, and has worked for years both in and out of the court system to improve the lives of at risk children.

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