“The Panic Rooms” may become a subcategory of the Hate Crimes on Wikipedia Project. I knew, when I started the project. What made me certain I’d cover those cases was remembering the news about Timon Birchett ? a D.C. man who “associated” with gays but didn’t “identify” as gay, who at least one associate said was gay but not out, who was found murdered in his apartment back in 2003, his body stuffed into a duffle bag. Again, I thought about how easily it could have been me.
A few weeks after I moved to D.C., in ’94, I was parking my car in Dupont, on my way to dinner. I didn’t know anyone yet, and had planned to dine alone and watch people walk up and down 17th street. I was just locking car when he approached me. He was a young 20-something like myself, attractive, an attractive Latino man, with a beautiful smile, and equally beautiful muscles that filled out his tight t-shirt, and were accentuated by the rather full backpack he was carrying. He instantly struck up a conversation with me. I thought fora moment I’d gotten incredibly lucky. Here I was new in town and this hot young guy was very interested in talking to me.
He followed me down the sidewalk, explaining to me that he was a student and he was kind of out of sorts because the dorms hadn’t opened up yet (it was August), and he needed a place to stay. As attractive as he as, and as attracted as I was too him, I remembered my roommate had told me about some D.C. area gay men who’d been killed or gone missing ? mostly black gay men ? and warned me to be careful bringing home any strangers. So we walked along, him talking incessantly, and me hovering somewhere between fear and arousal. He wanted to duck into J.R.’s to use the bathroom and insisted I come in and wait for him. As it turned out, between the bathroom and the front door he found someone with a better bed to offer than I could, and I went off to dinner as planed; wondering it was I’d just narrowly missed.
Anyone, gay or not, who takes home or goes home with a stranger is taking a certain risk, and making themselves vulnerable to harm. But I think where gay men are concerned, there’s an added danger of finding ourselves ourselves dealing with a someone who has specifically sought a gay man to rob or harm. Or we may find ourselves with a man who seemed interested at first, but who turns out to be so conflicted by or ashamed of his own same-sex desires that afterwards the shame and disgust he feels towards himself turns into panic and maybe even rage against the man who now knows his secret. And there’s only one way for his secret to stay in that room.
As the saying goes, two people can keep a secret…if one of them is dead. As with Richie Phillips, what happened between Jason Gage and his killer is known only to them. One of them is dead, and the other isn’t talking. So what’s left is the evidence: the killer who bar-hopped with Gage, and then went home with Gage, and said he fought with Gage after Gage made sexual advances; the killer whose body showed no injuries when he was arrested days later; the victim who was bludgeoned with a bottle and then stabbed in the neck with a piece of glass; the victim whose body bore no defensive wounds indicating he’d fought an attacker; the victim whom at least one report says was found in his bed; the apartment that showed no signs of a fight or struggle; the apartment detectives found two glasses set out, suggesting Gage and his killer had been drinking and watching television.
No one but Jason Gage and his killer knows what happened in that apartment, but here’s what we do know about what happened to Jason Gage.
Jason Gage was last seen alive on March 11, 2005, socializing with friends in Waterloo’s downtown bars. Sometime that night he went home to his apartment in the Russell-Lamson building. With him was 23-year-old Joseph Lawrence.
Gage was originally from Oelwein, Iowa. He’d lived in Chicago and Minneapolis before moving to Waterloo years earlier. He settled downtown, and worked waiting tables in the Italian restaurant of his apartment building. He enrolled at the College of Hair Design in Cedar Rapids, in January 2003, and his friends said he dreamed of working in a big city salon.
Lawrence was originally from Farmington, New Mexico, where he’d been an oil worker. New Mexico court records show that Lawrence pleaded guilty to possession of one ounce of marijuana in January 2003. He spent 30 days in the San Juan County Jail.
In early 2003, Lawrence moved from Farmington, New Mexico to Cedar Falls, Iowa, to be with his girlfriend — Elizabeth Hostetler — who was six months pregnant with their child. The couple — who had been together for a year — decided to move to Cedar Falls, because Hostetler had many “lifelong friends” in the area who could help with the baby .
Hostetler said she introduced Gage and Lawrence about a week before Gage’s murder. Hostetler had met Gage through an acquaintance and had known him for about two years.
Witnesses said Gage and Lawrence were together the night Gage was killed. They were seen at Kings & Queens, the local gay club, before heading to an after hours party at The Times Bar. The two left at some point and headed back to Gage’s apartment.
According to Hostetler, Gage told Lawrence that he could wait for a ride at his apartment, which was two blocks away from The Times Bar. A female friend and roommate of Hostetler’s said Lawrence called late Friday or early Saturday asking for a ride home from downtown, because he “didn’t like the hospitality of the place,” and needed a right or he was going to “end up in jail.”
An investigator said he received a call from a man who had been asked to give Lawrence a ride home from a downtown club. Lawrence never showed up for the ride, and the man said he later heard that from Hostetler that Lawrence had beat up Gage.
In the early hours of March 12, phone records show Lawrence sent several text messages to friends in Iowa and New Mexico via his cell phone. “I just killed a guy I think, ” one read. A second sent to Michael Bailey in New Mexico flashed “U need to call me soon.” A phone conversation between Bailey and Lawrence, in which which Lawrence said “some guy” tried to “hit on him real bad” and described “a fight that got way out of hand,” indicated that Lawrence may not have known Gage was dead.
Discovery & Arrest
At 11:00 p.m. on March 14, 2005, Gage’s body was found in his bed when police entered his apartment, after friends expressed concern after Gage did not show up at work on Monday and had not been see for three days. Gage had been bludgeoned in the head with a bottle and stabbed in the neck with a shard of glass. 
Hours later, 23-year-old Joseph Lawrence of Cedar falls was arrested and charged with Gage’s murder. Police said Lawrence admitted he had fought with Gage, hit him with a bottle, and stabbed him in the neck with a piece of glass.
An autopsy revealed that Gage died from severe head injuries. Gage’s body lacked any defensive wounds that would suggest he had warded off an attack. When police entered Gage’s apartment, two glasses were out, suggesting that Gates and Lawrence had been drinking and watching television.
Confession & Motive
Lawrence gave a videotaped statement at the Waterloo police station after plain-clothes police officer went to the home he shared Hostetler and asked him to come in for questioning. A police affidavit Lawrence acknowledged hitting Gage twice with a bottle and stabbing him with a piece of glass.
Hostetler, Lawrence’s finance, offered a motive when she said Lawrence told her Gage had made sexual advances. Hostetler said that Lawrence had gay friends, hung out with gay people, and did not have “violent tendencies.” She said that Gage must have made physical advances, the incident would never have happened had Lawrence not been drunk. “This was not a hate crime,” Hostetler said.
Hate Crime Charge Considered
The Iowa Code does not have a law defining murder based on racial or sexual bias as hate crime. Murder, regardless of motive, is punishable by life in prison without parole.
Another state law mentioned in Lawrence’s case, titled “violation of individual rights,” prohibits assaults, vandalism and trespass for reasons of race, color, religion, ancestry, national origin, political affiliation, sex, sexual orientation,age, or disability. In trial information formally charging Lawrence with murder, the prosecutor included a theory that Lawrence killed Gage while committing the crime of assault in violation of individual rights. 
Following Gage’s death, the Waterloo Human Rights Commission asked the City Council to add sexual orientation protections to the city’s human rights ordinance. State law allows cities to enact their own hate crimes ordinances.
Waterloo Mayor Tim Hurley joined the commission in condemning Gage’s murder, in a press conference outside the commission’s offices, but said he had not formed an opinion on the addition of sexual orientation to the city’s human rights statute.
Gage’s friends held candlelight vigils outside his apartment building and his family and classmates held a memorial outside of the beauty school. His wake in Oelwein was attended by hundreds, and his funeral drew a crowd too large for the funeral home where it was held.
Friends and community members started a scholarship in Gage’s name, and sold t-shirts and buttons with his image to raise money. Three area churches took up collections for Gage.
A benefit to raise money for the scholarship fund was held at the city convention center attracted numerous attendees. It also attracted protesters from the Westboro Baptist Church in Topeka, Kansas. About 20 Westboro members picketed six area churches and stood outside the convention center carrying signs and shouting that Gage was in hell.
The Westboro protesters were joined by a second group, Consuming Fire Campus Ministries, let by Matt Bourgault.
Plea & Sentencing
On December 16, 2005, as part of a plea agreement, Joseph Lawrence entered an Alford plea in the case of Jason Gage’s murder. The plea allowed Lawrence to avoid admitting guilt while acknowledging that he would likely have been found guilty of Gage’s murder had the case gone to trial.
Originally charged with first degree murder, which would have meant a life sentence without parole, Lawrence pleaded to the lesser charge of second degree murder. As part of the plea agreement, Lawrence also waived his right to appeal the plea and the sentence, and to pay a $150,000 civil penalty to Gage’s estate.
After entering his plea, Lawrence added “I have nothing appropriate to say,” and sat silent during his sentencing.
Judge Bruce Zager sentenced Lawrence to 50 years, which was the mandatory punishment under Iowa law. Lawrence must serve at least 70 percent — 35 years — of his sentence before he is eligible for parole.
Silence & A String of Facts
Black Hawk County Attorney Thomas Ferguson said that, as there were only two people in Gage’s apartment when he was killed, Lawrence’s silence leaves authorities with a “string of facts” to explain what happened that night:
* Lawrence told his girlfriend that Gage made sexual advances towards him. He told police that he hit Gage with a bottle and stabbed him in the neck with a piece of glass.
* The two arrive separately at same Waterloo, Iowa bar, and went to Gage’s apartment when the bar closed. Ferguson said evidence shows Lawrence went voluntarily.
* Two glasses were set out when police entered the apartment, suggesting the two were drinking and watching television.
* Gage’s body lacked any defensive wounds on his arms or hands, that would show he fought off an attack.
* The stab wound from the glass was likely inflicted after Gage was already mortally wounded.
* Ferguson said that Gage’s apartment showed no evidence of a large scale fight or confrontation.
* Lawrence showed no injuries that might have been sustained in a fight, when police picked him up three days later.
* Lawrence did not call for help after assaulting Gage.